HEY EVERYONE! It's been a bit since I've actually sat down and just written a good blog post. I really can't remember the last time I've just sat with my laptop and just reflected on what's been going on recently. So HI! It's nice to see you all? I mean- I can't really see you, but you know what I mean.
Within the past few weeks, I've wrapped up one of the wildest school years of my life (from crazy friendships to falling outs to grades to experiences, & soooo much more) but I'm grateful for who I am now.
I mean, never in a million years did I think I'd ever riff on Segerstrom's stage. Or campaign publicly for ASB. Or fly to Nashville and compete nationally in a choral festival. Or be in Mock Trial.
& that's just a small list! I never thought that this year would've brought those great things and more, but it's also taught me a lot because I'd be lying if I said there were never any low points.
This year certainly has pulled me out of my shell a bit more, and that's made me realize a ton of things I thought I already knew. For starters, I don't know as much as I think I do. I trust too many people because I believe that everyone is good and pure at their core, but that's not true. That's hardly ever true. The people this year who I thought were going to stay my close friends have changed so dramatically. & I guess I'm not complaining. It's made me realize who my good influences are, who my bad influences are, who changes when they're around certain people, what people are really like when I get the chance to hold an authentic and intentional conversation with them, etc. Finding friends has always been something that's been hard for me I guess because I'm so picky. I want to hang out with people who are going to be the best versions of themselves and who will encourage me to do the same. And yeah, everyone has their messy moments, it's life, but like- I want friends who are going to hold each other accountable and make good decisions. Ya know what I'm sayin'?
Next, this year taught me that I need to make myself happy before I get into any relationships. I mean, it's kinda a running joke with my friends that I was never single because this year, but honestly, that's taught me a lot. You learn a lot from being in relationships. I learned a lot about the people I was with, like who they were and who they are and how that's impacted me, but I learned so SO much about myself too. And I honestly don't regret being in those relationships because I was taught a HECK TON. I learned about the types of people I wanna surround myself with, a ton about respecting myself, and a whole big bunch about loving who I am on my own. I don't need anyone to validate who I am. I'm proud of who I am right now and that's enough.
One of the biggest things I learned this year is that some things are NOT worth my TIME or my ENERGY. & that's okay. That played a MAJOR part in what this year looked like for me. I tend to over-commit and under-deliver if that makes sense because I get so stressed out that I just don't want to do anything. But I'm really proud of myself because even though I'm not good at it, it's a lesson that I'm learning slowly and it's a good thing to remind myself of. Because sometimes, the tea isn't worth it, ya feel me?
Anywho, with my life lessons all stated above, I officially started summer last week! I had a hecka high fever the week of finals, so last week I FINALLY took my last two finals and I'm now a SENIOR which is SO WEIRD. It hasn't really hit me yet that graduation already happened and all of my friends are now alumni. It hasn't hit me yet that I'm kinda the top. I mean, that hasn't happened to me since 6th grade when we were the top dogs of our elementary school because at OCSA, middle school was still at a "high school" because it went from 7th-12th grade. So I guess now we're the cream of the crop and that's just weird to me because now I'm old. & COLLEGE. Oh my gosh, don't even get me started! That's something that's always seemed so far away. Like- something that I'd just handle in the future. But now is that future. & that's CRAZY to think that we're already there. Like- we're here. College is near. So this year is gonna be full of a lot of first's and even more last's. & that's kinda sad. But I guess that's what this year's gonna look like.
As of right now though, considering the fact that it is SUMMER, I'm looking forward the rest of this summer. I'm so excited to post that I'm in Chicago the Musical this summer, I'm auditioning for some other projects, I'll be traveling to Florida in a week or two to go to Disney World for the first time, & I'll be ending my summer in Arizona at LOST CANYON which is always my favorite week of the year. So look forward to some potential future posts about all that. (& you're WELCOME to stay updated on my Instagram for more day to day coverage on my adventures.)
I guess this was just a lil' catch up of what's been new with me lately! You'll hear from me soon!
Much Love,
Del