As I'm writing this, it's about 10 PM on Wednesday March 19th and it's been a busy day. I woke up and attended school without having done ANY homework, I got slapped in the face, I had a horrible dress rehearsal this afternoon, and was at school until a little after 7 PM tonight too. Long story short; today's been lovely.
As I sit on my couch writing this blog tonight, I'm feeling a lot of feelings. One that I would like to touch on to tonight though (or really, I guess whenever you're reading this,) is the love that I've felt growing up.
Now, I know this won't apply to everyone because everyone's story is different, but here's what I'm feeling:
Growing up as a child, I knew the love that I felt for my family, but that was all. I understood that I loved them and that they loved me, but that was the only real love that I could comprehend as a young child.
When I was old enough to follow the plot of a Disney movie, I then learned of this concept most commonly known as "True Love." Of course, I thought that my kindergarten boyfriend would be my true love at the time, but as I grew older, that concept became less popular and more cliché.
In elementary school, having a "thing" for over two days was a big deal. In middle school, over a week. Either way though, no one was looking for their true love. In short, I was just looking for a temporary filler to make me feel special. They were cute and sweet and innocent while they lasted, but flings like that were never significant.
In high school though, some folks are actually dating to find their true love. There are kids who I know who will soon become the high school sweethearts I'd dreamed of since I saw "High School Musical" as a little girl. Also in high school though, there are students looking for "smash and pass" relationships (or whatever y'all call them, I'm honestly not that sure...) where high schoolers are still looking for a temporary solution to make them feel special, but there never seems to be much of an emotional attachment.
As a high schooler, I don't know much about true love or what it's supposed to look like, but as naive as it sounds, I do believe wholeheartedly in this concept. I think that somewhere out there, there is someone the Lord has chosen for me. I think that at some point in my life there will come a time where I realize that God's given me the right person and I was too blind to see it until that moment. Although I don't know who that may be now though, I pray for them everyday. I pray that they love Christ. I pray that they love me. I pray that they match my crazy and that they can be just as sarcastic and silly as I am. And that's how I feel.
So with that;
Much Love,
Delaney Miller